Well I come to you today very ashamed. I made a commitment to myself and others to lose weight and I have failed. I am not sure why but I often wonder if it will take someone dramatic to change my endless laziness. Its not that I don't want to be healthy and fit, its that for whatever reason I lack the desire.
Which brings me to the greatest question know to mankind. Why? One would argue that if you knew why you can solve the problem. Wrong. I know why I am the way I am. It's because I am lazy,complaciant, and not motivated. Others would say I don't know how to be fit therefore I am not. Well that may be true but I have lost weight in the past and keep it off for a while. But life changes, and your body changes, and you discover that you can't just say you are going to lose weight and lose it. You have to work at it hard every minute of everyday.
I am not looking for pity party because that is not my style. I am fat, and I know it, and I feel like I am down in a hole with no way out. One thing I know for certain I can't count on anyone to reach down and pull me out. I can not expect to be bailed out, although 700 billion could buy me a personal trainer and some nice plastic surgery.
As the days get colder, I plan on trying to rediscover my passion to live a healthy life. I would love to hear from you, the reader, on how you maintain a healthy lifestyle and any struggles you have in battling weight loss.